parallels, attention and time

tonight on my drive home (listening to tv on the radio) all i could think about was how all i wanted to do was go home, take off all my clothes and blog... so here i am.

i've come to realize a lot of things as of late, let me explain.

1. i have this one friend, she is one of my best friends but we're constantly talking about her shitty relationship she's in. i always tell her she needs to quit dat dick but bitch won't listen. they just love each other too much but can't be together, you know.. that kind of thing. anyways, on my drive home tonight i realized a parallel relationship i have in my life. never noticing it before but i have someone in my life currently who is the hov, to me.. beyonce (wtf am i talking about?). but i hope you understand though.


2. earlier tonight i got an IM (that i got after work) from an old friend that sparked thoughts..i know that i definitely have commitment issues (lame) but i completely stand by what i say "my hearts too big." i'd love everyone if i could, i don't know what it is but this accurately describes me.



i just get really bored easily, other people attract my attention. i don't mean for it to be that way but if you're not trying hard enough, in the words of tegan and sara (lol), "i'm not unfaithful, but i'll stray." i'm sorry boys, i don't mean to be such a heartless bitch all the time. really i don't, but you need to try
harder to keep my attention if you wanna make it happen. it's not that i don't want to be in a relationship but i just can't get someone to get me to pay attention for five minutes. sweep me off my feet plz, i want to be blown away.

if ya like it then you shoulda put a ring on it

3. another realization: the reason my room is always a complete disaster zone is because i'm always late for something (and throw clothes everywhere while getting dressed and never have time to clean up) and if not late then definitely not early either. late for class, late to work (just a minute or two), late to meet my friends, late to pick up my brother. one thing i've decided since i've started being grown is that i 100% need to work on my time management skills. i feel like everyday is actually like 10 hours and i work 6 of those, party for 2, eat for 1, and sleep for 1. it's a terrible life and starting tomorrow ima be a changed woman. this is completely unacceptable.

-h@ley



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