Friday, January 30, 2009

yall i like this right now

despite a few things i am overall really happy with my life right now.

things that i'm doing to make myself happy

-joined the gym, i love it so much. ima addict. plus all my best girl friends go there so its a blast when i go.
-tanning bed, maybe not the healthiest but who doesn't mind being tan??
-getting my nails done regularly. i have been doing this for a while now but i just love it so much, its nice to pamper yourself every once in a while.
-eating healthier, water water water
-loosing the most weight
-my hair is so long and silky now, i need to get the ends trimmed though.
-making new friends, being happy
-being happy with old friends as well
-last but not least... going to richmond next weekend,

can't
fucking
wait

Monday, January 26, 2009

: (

well things are over, it ended as quickly as it began really. i think its for the best but it does make me sad. i don't want to loose people in my life, especially such an awesome person. i hope this works out.

Friday, January 23, 2009

i saw notorious the other day and it wasn't as bad as i thought it was going to be. for what it was i think it was done pretty well. after seeing that it just made me only want to listen to rap, constantly. i always go in and out of these music moods. i will choose one genre or band and become completely enveloped in it. i won't listen to anything else for weeks (possibly even a month), so right now my obsession is rap 24/7.

nwa - because they never gave a fuck about anything that was being said about them. they neva gave 2 fux if everyone was pissed they were talking about life on the streets and police brutality, which is what i really admire about them. they told it how it was. (RIP EAZY)

big - it's such a shame that you were taken from us so young. only two cd's out and you still managed to completely change the rap game as well as the world. i'll forever love and miss you. biggie forever


the fugees - so sweet and smooth, lauryn hill has the most amazing voice and wyclef's raps are always the tightest. couldn't respect this group more.


kanye west
- i have such a love/hate relationship with kanye. as much as i want to hate him i can't help but love every song he puts out. the only beef i have with kanye is how much he pushes himself to be a "legend". where i don't disagree that he is/will be one that doesn't mean he should push it upon himself. if he is a truly great artist then it should just come to him. still love you though kanye, best dressed for sure. ps: i love everything you've done for louis vuitton so far. good luck. pps: i'll be your wifey any day <3


jay-z - you've always been my favorite, since the beginning. first black guy crush. i don't have much to say about you but you got the sickest rhymes and i'm glad you finally put a ring on it, beyonce deserved that shit.




lil kim - my biggest inspiration thus far. lil kim embodies everything i want to be. i love trashy, slutty rapper girls and she's the OG. plus there's no denying she rhymes better than any other female and somehow she manages to be so hard yet so sexy at the same time. i hope one day i can be half the woman she is.


kid sister - livin' the dream! wish you were my girlfriend. i'd def be a lesbian for you. muah muah muah. can't wait for your new cd to drop!



lupe fiasco - i think lupe fiasco changed my life honestly. i shared all of my first high experiences with him. i remember hours of just sitting on the floor with caiti and the gb, listening to food & liquor. that was such a definitive rap cd for me, it's when i first realized how cool rap could be. ily lupe, you truly inspire me and i'll miss you when you retire. this next cd better be off the hook. love forever


the cool kids - i am so in love with mikey, #1 biggest black dude crush ever. we've shared so many special moments, i should have had you when i could! ughh, h8 myself forever. anyways, the cool kids always have the dopest rhymes and tightest beats. not to mention the sexiest. yummm. cum 2 mama. <3


Thursday, January 22, 2009

kangay




"I know people will find that as another thing to hate me on, but fuck it. I'm open to doing porn. Hell, I'll even do bisexual scenes - myself, another man and a woman, or just me and two women. I know people will find that as some weird shit, but I am who I am."

upd8: kanye didn't actually say this but its still funny as hell

rip heath

miss you boo :(

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

watch me

honestly my true calling in life is to be a girl rapper, make this dream happen for me.







Monday, January 19, 2009

empty

don't think i have it left in me

Saturday, January 17, 2009

scaggs

i hate when my parents fight but love when my mom stands up to my dad
hate my dad, hate hate hate

what happened to me wanting to hate less? i think its in my blood.


ftw
fml

Friday, January 16, 2009

new years reprised

1. improve my vocabulary- learn a new word everyday and try to use it
2. stop being so materialistic
3. get rid of things i don't need
4. give, give, give
5. get 8+ hours of sleep a night
6. don't hold grudges, let everything go
7. love more, hate less
8. actually do my homework this semester, try harder in school
9. read at least a book a month (other than for school)
10. find a good job and stick with it


i think this is a much better list than my first; however i will keep "work on not being a whiny bitch," that's necessary.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

two thousand fine

late new years resolutions:

1. work on not being a whiny bitch
2. stop buying weed so much
3. go to sleep earlier
4. blog more
5. + 10 inches of hair
6. -20 more pounds
7. better myself
8. be a better daughter, friend, sister, sister-friend
9. love more
10. stop hatin' so hard

peach plum

today i'm starving
today i broke a nail
today my boyfriend wouldn't answer
today i'm lonely and needy and annoying

on the other hand i bought a new tripod and my school books and picked up my puppy from the vet (she got her lady bits snipped at).

i wish i was happy with where i am in my life but i'm not at all, never content. just when i think things are getting better something happens and my outlook on life is completely changed, however yesterday my fortune cookie said "you are heading in the right direction" so that may be a good sign.

i hate being like this, i know it annoys everyone around me. i'm sorry if you read this, i'll try to be more interesting next time.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

assassination is such a funny word

-something is missing, i'm not sure what it is but nothing seems right these days.
-i need to get out of this town, it's really been wearing on me lately.
-my car will probably break down today, be my ride for forever.
-i love when random people smile at me, it really does make my day.

i need a miracle, a surprise, something different, something new, something exciting.

i, i, i, i, i, i, i.

i am so selfish, i need to change this.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

final countdown

this is it,
no more chances.

don't fuck it up again, prove me wrong.

Friday, January 9, 2009

always

I'll be the first to admit I've made a lot of mistakes in my past but it IS my past and everyone is entitled to one,
so suck it!

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

420

it's sad that the only thing i'm truly passionate about is how bullshit the war on drugs is.

Sunday, January 4, 2009

too good to be true

i hate you more and more everyday and i don't want to, it consumes me

Friday, January 2, 2009

byebye

my bowl broke right after midnight on new years, jamie and i decided this is very symbolic. anyways, i'm leaving all the bullshit in '08. WHATS UP 2009?? LETS BE BFFS! i want this to be the best year of my life.

SEEYA

ps: second karmaloop order (listed below) is supposed to come today, can't waittttttttttttttttttttt! :)
pps: saw benjamin button last night, 1. saddest movie 2. COULD BRAD GET ANY HOTTER?? kill me plz. h8 you angelina
ppps: sorry for all the caps, i feel like i'm fuckin' kanye or something.