today

-drivin'
-its the roanoke river yall
-love that
-something interesting in roaonoke
-he was stalking us
-she really wanted lemons
-self pic
-slingin' gas haulin' ass! (or something)
-rainbow
-this is for you is@

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I keep having these reoccurring images and thoughts in my head of me falling and breaking different bones in my body. And like really really terrible breaks and I just keep thinking about it and I can picture everything that's happening and how bad it hurts and I can see and feel and hear the bones breaking. Everything about it is so surreal. These aren't dreams when I'm sleeping either. These are conscious thoughts and I can't get them out of my head. I don't know whats wrong with me but I'm starting to scare myself. Fuck it.

gone to betseyville

I bought way too much shit today but this Betseyville by Betsey Johnson leopard print bag was by far my favorite purchase.

some things i saw today that i liked

-car outside of cici's. in case you can't tell what that is on the bumper, it is skulls.












- II COMNG (all that needs to be said)












-the sky looked really beautiful today

more things i want

-steve madden


















-the ns skytop sneaker by supra























-jean paul gauliter 'madame' (not a big fan of the bottle but it smells delicous, not to mention that agyness deyn models for the ads. love it)

loop duplicate my heart

Despite today being so dreary I found two really interesting things. As I was driving down Church st. on my way to the Jefferson center I stopped at a crosswalk to let a man walk across and he didn't have a face, literally.. no face. It stunned me, I've never seen anything like that before. It was so interesting. I felt like I was straight out of Invisible Monsters by Chuck Palahniuk. The second thing I noticed was, when I was driving home tonight the streets were so wet from the rain but the rain had stopped for just a few minutes and the stop lights were making the street shine bright colors, I thought it was so beautiful. In a world full of such terrible things, it's nice to notice something small and beautiful.

Also my sister saw Choke tonight, of which I'm extremely jealous.



And a further note, anyone who's reading (aka no one) should check out Suburban Kids With Biblical Names. I really like them, they're so cute but have a rough sound. They're like if you mixed together all of my favorite bands and they had a love child.

SKWBN- #3 (2005)

Here are a few pictures from my rainy week.












-some dumb game everyone plays at work














-dirtiest car













-it was soo rainy out today














-what i wore tonight














-dirtiest desk

#1 favorite couple award

please momma

couldn't say it better

'It was on a lovely spring morning, and when I marked the sunlight dancing here and there, its beauty seemed to mock my sadness.'

show me the way

Ever since I was younger I've always felt like I'm going to die a terrible, gory, young death. Car crash? Fall off a building? Tornado? Get my head chopped off by a helicopter? T-rex?? The possibilities are endless. I'm not sure why I've always had this negative outlook on life but it consumes me sometimes and I hate it. I can't drive down the road without feeling like I'm going to wreck the car at any minute. My funeral flashes before my eyes a lot. I hate it. I constantly think about the end of the world and it drives me insane. I think I'm falling apart before my very own eyes. I feel nothing but so much at the same time. I'm more confused now than ever. I can't be here anymore, I need a new life plan. I need something, someone, or somewhere to get me away from this feeling that eats me alive.

bottomdweller

Last night I saw The Avett Brothers at the Jefferson center. I almost didn't get to go (it was sold out) but luckily I have a mommy with connections and that was nice. It was by far the best show I've ever been to. The energy throughout the entire show was amazing, everyone was so into it. As cheesy as it sounds, it was like the crowd was one. The music quality, the vocals, the performance in general, everything was nothing less than outstanding, even their opening act, Justin Gordon, blew my mind. He has such a sweet country/folk voice, oh, and it doesn't hurt that he's adorable. It is 100% worth it to download or buy (whatever you're into) his newest (or any) CD, Ten Dollar Guitar. Also worth mentioning, The Avett brothers said during their set that they are releasing a new record soon, as soon as I found out I tried to buy one but I don't think they're out yet. Also I can't find anything about it on their website or myspace so as soon as I figure it out I'll post up. Anyways, I must be off to my 8-5 dip class (kill me). At least when I'm done I get to go to Danville to see my baybay Caitlin! Can't waitttttt.

i've got to run

Somethings gotten into me lately. All I want to do is listen to Black Flag and destroy shit. I've been in this mood where I don't care about anyone at all, not even myself. I just don't give a fuck. And the scary thing is, I don't really mind it.

into you like a train

I'm in Richmond, listening to Jawbreaker, about to go to the river and then shafer. I miss this lifestyle more than anything in the entire world. I want to move back now please.

$$$

Add these to the list of new clothes I want for my wardrobe. These skin tight Cheap Mondays are only $65. Gotta get 'em.

Somedays I feel like I need a PR person

I wonder a lot about what people think of me. Not that I particularly care what anyone thinks about me, but I do wonder. I'll be the first to admit that I've made some bad decisions in the past but the past IS the past, let it go. A lot of people hate me and I wish it wasn't that way. I like most everyone, I wish I had a lot of friends but alas I have just one, my good ol' burl Caitlin Abbott. Oh well, I'd rather have one Caiti than a billion other friends. Life just gets lonely sometimes.


Anyways, tell me what you think about me. Be honest, tell me the truth, because I DO want to know.

pump your fists, come on

I've been looking for a new pair of high waisted jeans and I think these may be the ones. As soon as I have a little extra money I'm going to buy them.

ready for war

Big news for meee... Caiti and I are moving to England in February. We decided that we're sick of the same ol' same ol' and we want to get out and actually do something with our lives that we'll be proud of. So far its down to either Cambridge or Birmingham, we'd love to live in London but that is wayy to expensive for us right now. Everyone's going to say we can't do it, my parents will want to kill me (again); but I have faith, I know Caiti and I can do this. We want it more than anything. We've already started looking for flats and jobs. As I figure things out I'll probably post them on here. We haven't really decided how long we're staying yet, we're kind of going to play it by ear and see how we feel about it once we get there. I can't wait, this is actually going to happen. I'm sick of just talking about things and never doing them. I'm going to make myself happy for once.

5 billion thumbs up

Last night I had the honor and privilege of seeing the film The Wackness. The movie takes place in New York in 1994, it centers around a recent highschool graduate/drug dealer named Luke Shapiro. It's all about growing up and the trials and tribulations of being a teenager. At first I went just to see Mary-Kate but by the end of the movie I had forgotten about Mary-Kate and absolutely fell in love with Josh Peck and Olivia Thirlby. The Wackness has one of the best, if not the best, soundtracks i've heard in a long time (below is the link for the mix tape of songs that didn't make it onto the soundtrack), it just keeps you wanting more. This movie has now replaced The Lost Boys as my #1 favorite movie of all time, you gotta get out and see it!




The Wackness: Mix Pt. 1
The Wackness: Mix Pt. 2